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I need a new job. Every time I think about my current job--going to work tomorrow, planning for future projects, etc., I get a sinking feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach. First thing first: I am glad to have a job. I know I am lucky to be gainfully employed, able to pay my bills, insured, and the like. But I hate what I do right now, and I cannot wait to be doing something else. Customer service is the pits deluxe! Not only are you the first point of defense for the customer's abuse, you are the red-headed stepchild of the organization internally. Now, without my department, the organization wouldn't have revenue. Without ticketing, no one comes to the event, no one pays to see the event, and therefore, the event will not happen and no one will make any money. But we are treated like we have no idea how the organization runs. It's terrible to work where you cannot be an effective force for change. You want to do the job better than your predecessor and really prove your worth, but when your ideas and innovations are devalued, you lose the impetus to make any improvements. You lose the drive to be creative, and then the job starts to suck you dry like a leech. My title is director, but I don't direct anything. Directives are handed down to me, and I have to implement them, no matter how ill-conceived they may be. I have little to no input into these grand designs, and I feel like I could make them better if I were included in the brainstorming process. Sometimes I wonder if it is because I am temporary, somewhat, in my position that I do not feel empowered. It just seems silly to hire someone, even if for a short while, and not let them contribute to the process in the manner that their skills would allow.

I know that this current job is not what I want to do in the "big picture" scenario of my professional life, but I take pride in doing a very good job even in a less than desirable situation. Plus, having completed a master's degree, I am incredibly eager to put my dollars and education to work as soon as possible. I chose a program that I enjoyed and could see myself happy in pursuing those career options that this training could afford me. Now, if only I could convince potential employers of my viability!